can I do this again?
Today I ate a 6-inch ham Subway for lunch. For breakfast, at 4am (hypo or panic attack, who knows?), I had an apple and a kiwi fruit.
I just finished a cup of milky coffee.
I don't think it's the coffee, or the meds; I think I just feel strong. I think it's me.
I went in for a gym session and did not leave feeling drained or sick. I left with rock-hard biceps and a well-stretched back.
If you want, you ["you" being the evil Naina, who else even reads this?] can look at this situation and say "Yeah, well, you didn't study." But let me bask in my contentment for that is all I want. I am not stressing over nothing, but enjoying my time just being, an almost unrecognisable state.
The only way to study is to do so with a clear mind (I just realised that I was not thinking about food for 5 whole straight minutes of my life!). I am clearing my mind.
My dog is waiting at the door; he senses my mum is arriving home soon or maybe she has already pulled the brakes into our driveway. Today, maybe I can greet her with a smile rather than the blank, emotionless face that is now the unfortunate norm. My sister will, too, arrive home soon -- someone is at the door.
I am smiling.
I just finished a cup of milky coffee.
I don't think it's the coffee, or the meds; I think I just feel strong. I think it's me.
I went in for a gym session and did not leave feeling drained or sick. I left with rock-hard biceps and a well-stretched back.
If you want, you ["you" being the evil Naina, who else even reads this?] can look at this situation and say "Yeah, well, you didn't study." But let me bask in my contentment for that is all I want. I am not stressing over nothing, but enjoying my time just being, an almost unrecognisable state.
The only way to study is to do so with a clear mind (I just realised that I was not thinking about food for 5 whole straight minutes of my life!). I am clearing my mind.
My dog is waiting at the door; he senses my mum is arriving home soon or maybe she has already pulled the brakes into our driveway. Today, maybe I can greet her with a smile rather than the blank, emotionless face that is now the unfortunate norm. My sister will, too, arrive home soon -- someone is at the door.
I am smiling.
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