Akon

I’ve decided to feel lonely today. My friend smiled at me today but I felt lonely so I didn’t smile back. I call her my friend but because I was lonely today, she was just an acquaintance.

I went to the library and the lady at the counter wanted to help me carry my books, but I was too lonely to take the basket.

Today I went to study and the group asked if I wanted to study with them, but I went to sit alone so I could feel lonely properly.

Someone asked me for help today, for some work they had to complete, but I was too lonely so I said I was busy. I was busy being lonely.

I called up my dad and I cried into the phone because I was lonely. He said I should go out into the sun but I said no, because maybe then I wouldn’t be lonely and I had already decided to be lonely today.

Then I decided to just go outside because well, I had to go outside anyway, and I didn’t feel lonely because the sun was with me. And the sun is great and didn’t leave me alone long enough to be lonely.

Then I realised that I didn’t feel like being lonely today.

I actually just really was lonely.

So I went back inside.